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On 8/5/2011 5:14 PM, Tex wrote:
On Fri, 05 Aug 2011 16:52:58 -0500, "Charlie L." <charlie@the-old-gnu-zoo.org> wrote:
On 8/5/2011 3:49 PM, Tex wrote:
Hey don't knock your shins againt the bedrail over the etiology
of feces ... might payoff when it comes time to order dinner one
of these days! :-)
Well, I wound up in a pile of shit, the etiology or figuring out of
how all that shit happened and the inventory and sifting through
all of that shit and realization that it was *all* shit and coming
to a place to be able to let or ask somethin, someone, ones or
whatever, with enough power, that it be taken away, and let it all
or any of it go at discretion of that sumpthin or someone or ones,
more powerful than I, that could or would haul or take it away as
they or it seen fit' as pertained to my usefulness to them or it,
played a big part in coming to be able to say, what it was like,
what happened and what it say like now.
CC
Oakie Dookie! (What does that mean?)
It mean:
I admitted I was powerless over alcohol--that my life had become
unmanageable. (was in a pile of shit)
Came to believe.. blah blah... to Sanity. (from Insanity, to sanity, not
from drunk to sobriety. ;-)
Made that grudge list. "...in dealing with resentments, we set them on
paper. We listed people, institutions or principles with whom we were
angry. We asked ourselves why we were angry."
Then:
On that grudge list I set opposite each name my injuries and asked: Was
it my self-esteem, my security, my ambitions, my personal, or sex
relations, which had been interfered with?
I, to the best of my ability, tried to be as definite as this example:
I'm resentful at:
Then after reading lil more,
I turned back to the grudge list, and looked for the *key* to the future.
We were prepared to look at it from an entirely different angle. We
began to see that the world and its people really dominated us. In that
state, the wrong-doing of others, fancied or real, had power to actually
kill. How could we escape? We saw that these resentments must be
mastered, but how? We could not wish them away any more than alcohol.
I sometime kid about my getting lucky and outliving my want to drink and arriving alive at 55. But I came to realize I 'd best not depend on
*luck* to stay alive or live. I wanted something with kind of a
guarantee to it in pretty strong language kind of like:
"Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path."
It worked. Still works. at least today and today is just about 24 days
shy of 16 years.
I imagine yer story about same 'cept for you, it lil shy of... what is
it now, coming on 36 or 37 years?
You my ARAA *winner* fellow, you was here when I got here, you mind if I continues to stick 'nd tag along 'hind you.
CC
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